openwide - Dominant, Sadist Male

The night when 18 year old me got asked by my then-girlfriend to punish her for something she did (long forgotten what it actually was) is still a clear memory in my head, though it happened 25 years ago. That was the first time I saw the beauty of pain transforming into pleasure, and the first time I've felt how much this turns me on.

I've always had a secret life, one way or another - I think we all do. Ever since that moment I've had a thing for the 'unsual', and been exploring my kinks thoroughly. Consequently, I've also been trying to figure out how various dirty sides of me can co-exist peacefully with the everyday person most people around me know.

The only thing I know for sure is that even though experiencing my various kinky sides often feels like there are multiple different persons (and personalities) inside of me, all of them longing for very different lives, all of those personalities are actually the very same person, and that one person has this one life only. I'm trying to make that one count.

I'm not here for a specific something or someone and I'm not chasing anything. (I don't necessarily want to fuck you either, even if I want to talk...)