The greatest fear
02. 23. 14:02 | Published: 99x
The wind hurt my face and whipped around my ears. I kept my pace no matter how bad the pain got. I drove and drove through the field and just thought I have to go. The panic shot up in me and made sure that I had no rest. No sense of security and the inner pressure that was increasing...
At some point my arms started to hurt, because driving the wheelchair at full speed eventually leads to a state of exhaustion. In my panic I missed a rock and a front wheel got stuck. I just flew out of the wheelchair and was just able to catch myself. There I lay and was completely frozen, panic flowed through my body and I was now screaming my heart out...
But first things first... so that you readers know who I actually am and what happened...
Why I drive is because I'm lucky enough to be in a wheelchair. Well, you can hardly say luck, I would much rather walk, but that's not possible because of my missing legs. I still take life as it comes and mostly I get along very well. My age now is mid 30's and my name is Little Werewolf. Wolves have done it to me for several years, and simply describes my nature and character.
So there I lay, screaming my heart out. I was scared, really scared. Yes, even as a man, this feeling can overwhelm you and then you no longer have control. Completely exhausted, at some point the screams stopped and wept and fell into a twilight state. I don't remember how long I lay there. After what felt like an eternity, I slowly came to and tried to sit up. My thoughts were circling and only thought of you. To my lady and what has happened in the last few hours.
It was just one word or one thing that caused this panic. She wanted to close me in a girdle belt. What a horror. I got into my wheelchair as fast as I could and ran away. The first time something scared me like that. I felt my cell phone ring and pulled it out of my pocket to see who it was. My lady and I just start on the display. I would have liked to go, but I couldn't. Several times she tried to reach me and then a Whats up message came "When you've let off steam, you'll come back here, we understand each other". Oh how well she knows me and knows that my nature has such escape moments. After a while it got too cold on the ground and it was already getting dark. Hey what should I do?
Drive home and withdraw, or drive to my lady and face my fear.
My lady is something special and I admire her immensely from the bottom of my heart. Not every non-disabled person dares to play with someone who looks like me. She often seems very sweet, but in the game she becomes the devil himself. I've never had a human make me suffer and scream the room down. She managed to do this and could even handle my wildness.
Our game shows a lot of familiarity and goes really deep. Well, she just loves being in complete control of everything. Now this also meant about my lust. This has always been a limit because much can be controlled over it.
Well and now I saw it on the floor and thought about what I should do now. Should I face my biggest fear, or should I back down and maybe lose everything I've wanted for so long.
Again came a message "I'm waiting for an answer, now". I took a deep breath and with shaking hands I picked up the phone again and wrote "Okay I'll be back".
With difficulty I got back into the wheelchair and drove back to her. The path seemed longer than before and stretched like chewing gum.
Finally I stood in front of the door again and I really just had a muff. With a trembling hand I pressed the bell and then it was time to wait. Familiar footsteps came and she opened the door for me. I looked down and would have sunk even deeper. A silence spread and I suddenly felt her hand on my chin. She forced me to look into her really dark eyes. Not a word, just her eyes and a look that hit me deeply. I would have liked to look away, and yet I knew that she would never let me do that.
Then after what felt like an eternity, "Come along" came and let me go. I rolled in and just looked down again. The door closed and she led the way. I knew that I had to follow her without saying anything back. When we were back in the playroom, like all too often, she sat down on her throne and waited. I stood small and uncertain in front of her and still looked down.
After a while came "Do we want to be silent the whole time now, or are you going to explain
something was wrong with me". I shook my head and how I hated that but I couldn't hold back my tears. After I had calmed down a bit, I could only say quietly, "I'm sorry I fled". I fell to the ground and knelt at her feet. All I could say was "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I disappointed you". Then I felt her hand on the back of my neck, which always made me relax. For the first time since my escape I was able to relax. I plucked up the courage to speak and talked all my fears off my chest. "I can't manage to give up this control completely, I want to enjoy it and I'm an untameable being after all"...
She let me talk and waited for me to finish. We were silent again and after a while I felt that she took her hand under my chin again and I had to look into her eyes again. "Thank you for finally telling me what was going on." "But you can be sure of one thing, you'll never run away like that and ignore me again, we understood each other." I nodded knowing she was right.
She got up now and came back with something in her hand. I knew right away what it was. It was a penis cage and knew there was no going back now. I looked at that thing for a long time and thought "damn shit" and did I really want that?
I wanted that from the bottom of my heart and I want to serve my lady from the bottom of my heart. She knew that too, because she saw it the first time we met.
Basically I knew what I had to do and basically I wanted to conquer this fear. Taking a deep breath, I began to undress completely and wait to see what happens. With a smile, my lady got up and began to put the penis cage on my good piece. It felt strange and then the clicking sound came and she knew that she had closed the lock and had the key in her hand. Panic rose again and my breathing quickened. She gave me a kiss on the forehead and a soft whisper came to my ear "Thank you for trusting me so much".
I tried to control my breathing and now I knew she had complete control over me. Yes, and yet there was a feeling of calm and security. There she sits on her throne again and wanted to do something. I crawled to her feet and started kissing her shoes. "Thank you that I may serve you and that I may be your property"...
And so the whole thing took its course that the wolf was tamed and learned to trust someone.